Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Spring time, and everything is green and blooming. I LOVE it! Well, apart from the sighting of a baby garter snake close to my front door. I know, I know... it was dead. AND it was only a harmless and friendly kind of snake, but I DO NOT CARE! It still freaks me out. However, consistently warm weather is such a gift from God. It makes my soul happy to be able to enjoy the fresh air so much more. I must enjoy spring for all it's worth, because I fear I may have a hard time surviving the summer heat...

We have finally gotten the living room all pretty and devoid of boxes. We were gifted a lovely bookshelf, and now it houses many many books, and pretty little decorations. It looks quite lovely and artful, if I do say so myself. Ryan and I spent an afternoon arranging and sorting and rearranging, and we are quite pleased with the results! I'm anxious to have people over now.... now that the living room actually looks like a home. :)

The last few weeks of work have been rough. I have battled homesickness and exhaustion, and I want them to go away and leave me in peace. By way of many conversations and times of going back and forth with my manager, I was finally able to change my availability while remaining in my current position. I will close only once a week, and work on one Saturday a month. I see other women doing so much with their time - working and being married and having a family and social life, and balancing it all, and I wonder how they do it. Because, at this point in my life, I don't seem to be able to manage it. Without my evenings and weekend hours to connect with my husband and my new surroundings, my life and emotions get ALL out of whack. I don't want to be a moody and stressed out wife. I want to be cheery and buoyant and content. And so, to achieve that, I'm cutting back my hours. And I couldn't be happier.

So long for now.... the land of delectable caffeinated beverages calls....

3 comments:

Candi said...
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Candi said...

Dead or not, at the sight of that snake they would have found my body wrapped frantically around one of the beams on my front porch, as near the roof as I could get. And I would have been dead. And even in death I would have not let go.

Snakes: the fastest way to a heart attack. :) For me anyway. Hahaha.

Julie Lynn said...

aww Liz! Those things will all leave your heart at one point - and you'll miss being homesick. It'll be bittersweet, the moment when you are completely comfortable in your present and have no desire to live in your past.

And, those of us that balance everything, well here's a secret; we are all hiding. It's true, we are hiding something from the world, and so we work to please everyone around us. I am exhausted from it too. I have always admired your ability to take time from work to be you, and do what you need to do to make you happy and healthy mentally.

miss you xo